708am

you run around in circles doing this and doing that with your phone in your hand dude you are always one hundred percent of the time looking down at it true story you are never concerned with the the living breathing ppl swirling around you like dreams forgotten in the early morning like lies told at midnite and you have your earbuds in -

your bose headphones clamped to your skull -

the stereo

blasts

in your car ok you listen to happy music big bass music loud angry music it voices your displeasure with the way things be in the world around you dude you

eat this and eat that eat it all the time and fast too like a wolf like a predator like a modern scavenger and maybe you clean up a lot maybe the tv is always on maybe there is constantly a mess in your crib maybe you tell your friends and anyone who will listen [loud voice] that you NEVER watch tv in fact YOU DO NOT EVEN OWN ONE of those things

nossir

nomaam

not you no way you are all deep and shit and to prove it you read this writer and that writer becuz they say things your parents never did or wait

i know

they say things your parents never did becuz they neglected you abused you molested you hit your mom in front of you blah blah blah

and you type about it and email your blog posts around to other survivors just like you

and it is all a lie

you and your suburban nonsense

typing away in some vainglorious attempt to convince yourself and others that you are not the piece of shit you know you are

all down deep in your essence but like man

what made you feel that way in the first place

and how come you refuse to face your shit head on and actually become real?

i mean.

the clock is mosdef ticking right?

tick tick tick.

listen.

it is gonna be ok.

ty b cares.

for real for real.

we can make it together.

i promise. put your faith in me and i will never let you down again.

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kisses to the kissable.

dap to all the rest.