1010

they all accept
she said.

i was
reaching
trying to breathe
i guess.

umm maybe it keeps people
from going insane
i replied.

you know - not really realize
what's up like
all the way.

she wasn't listening.
she never paid attention to anyone.
her blue eyes found the cover of a magazine
and she froze.

i stared at her for what felt like hours.
i couldn't remember why she was mad.

finally - i got up from the couch
turned a million locks
walked out the door
down the stairs
et cetera.

go on feeling sorry for yourself
i said to the moonlight.
weep
cry out loud
hold your shaking limbs
in two pale hands.

whatever.

i was on avenue a and it was late
and i started to walk toward 14th Steet
with my hands in my pockets.
every fifteen feet
someone asked me for money.