2300

I cannot sleep and everyone is sleeping I
well
TCU is playing Boise State on the TV in my room yeah bitch fuckin plasma
yawn
and the pretty girl [there has always been a pretty girl wellno not really well yeah kinda i mean there were a few times when I cared more about the drugs I always ruin everything with but like otherwise yeah like I know what to say at first at least so whatever ok. But like honestly tho this brackets part is pointless and narcissistic and plus really going nowhere and becoming endless so like I'm gonna jump out immediately and get back to the asdf if you don't mind.]

anyway so yeah
THE PRETTY GIRL well she isa woman and I am a man how
fuckinwierd does that sound I mean I
am
a
man ok but ah I do not feel like a man ok no not even closebut anyway the pretty girl said:

- i have to pee

and

- man why are you still awake

and I said idk but listen dude I want to tell you something I want to tell you why I cannot sleep it isbecuz I
just read a story no a blog post no

a really fucked-up acct of some totally fucked up shit ok umm listen

back in the day there was this girl ok and she i mean
totally fuckin hot like
hot enough to be on the cover of the magazines she was indeed on all the fuckin time and umm well ok the day i met her she was wearing her pants inside out and she had on like nine Swatches or some shit becuz yeah
Swatch gave her free watches and I mean like every guy pushing a skateboard or a 20inchbike was in love with her 100%

TRUE STORY! HA HA YEAH!!!

That part in all caps was unnecessary but hey I like excalmation marks ok fuckin sue me this is my asdf not yours brah right so umm

anyway yeah

26 years ago I met the girl wearing her pants inside out.

26.

Can you fucking believe 26?

And umm sometime s we were friends and sometimes it was adversarial and then we both went off and chased whatthefuckever all around the land of the free blah blah blah ffwd tow now where we ar e both on Facebook yeah and I just read something she wrote and it broke my heart and

broke my heart and now I can't sleep.

HEAR ME!

I am going to run in the morning. I am going to run on the snow and the ice and I am going to count my breaths and think of you and all the years in between and those roads to hell and back.

I mean her. I am going to think of her.

It is cold here. My children are sleeping in their beds. Across town my ex-wife is sleeping in my ex-bed with my ex-friend. Him and her and cocaine and me caught me slippin.

Mostly me.

But that's old news right? Tired and boring and full of lies to make everyone look like victims. Shownuff.

But whatever.

Ms. D, I am thinking about you ok.

And I am glad we are saying hey again.