2012 | medical terms, hawkeye pierce, and the plantagenets |

lies you tell yourself like maybe if your days were filled with words everything would be ok maybe nothing would bother you not nothing not like umm phone calls where she says umm he sounds like an old man now he
has
turned into an old man he
wants to talk to you he said he is seeing a doctor about what happened back then he
[and you cut her off]
wait
[you say]
i am not mad but too much time has passed you know
too much time has passed the
instrumental version of suicide is painless plays as the credits roll and you are indeed that boy again sitting on the floor in front of the tv wondering why they are not together anymore and who are all these new ppl telling you what to do you go back there true story and you hum the words that the instrumental leaves out
[the pain grows stronger watch it grin]
but that place really does not exist anymore and
plus
beautiful young margie cutler has cancer in her bones now yeah and
radar always heard the choppers before anyone else did yeah
and
oh
the days when TV was the only drug available man listen
i am sending season one of mash back to netflix unfinished becuz it makes me remember all those days those frozen lonesome stretches man those two they fucked up my life so fucking bad and
i paid them back with my own divorce and i see me again in my children's eyes yup all fucked up and scared and i guess there is no way to deal with it

so
i sigh all long and slowly and say to the unimpressed sky that
one
day
man
we will all be dead and buried and none of this will matter anyway
and i suppose that
between now and then i will type becuz when it comes down to it i don't know how to do anything else.

one.