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Take something far and make it close. That means: think it very hard so that it becomes.

You can do this. You are a writer.

Writers.

That is why there are so many feelings you feel. that is why you can't get rid of anything. Be numb.

Sucker.

Memorial Weekend. There are radio countdowns. Mine is on loud. Walls shaking. Number something, maybe 6, best albums of all time is Sir Elton John something or other. Side one is playing right now. I don’t know this song, but I know Elton.

Remember records?

Got drunk earlier. Nothing like sitting in the sun behind a railing at a drinking establishment watching the world go by, scantily clad, while you sip on salad in a glass. (i.e. bloody marys) I know, I know, you don’t give a shit. Whatevs. We are just blogging here, right?

Now? Oh, right. Now I just made home made French fries. They are baking in a four hundy degree oven right now. Seasoned to perfection, I’m sure. Burgers made of two meats, have been mixed with various flavorings. They are sitting their pink selves on a cutting board waiting to be made into something brown.

Elton is playing piano to me from four decades ago. Music is permanent time travel.

I found some love letters I wrote to someone 20 years ago. Wanted to puke at how in love I was. If not for the handwriting I wouldn’t have thought I could have ever written something so gay.

What happened to love like that?